It's been a long time. I promised I would be better and look what happened...
I have been working and when I work, life goes on hold. I love my job, though. I work with some of the nicest people. When I first started, everyone was so kind to me. They would greet me by name, ask how I was getting along, if I liked it there. They were so concerned. I have never worked with such a nice bunch of people.
When I worked at Robert's, I loved my managers. They were super down to earth, they were funny and we would have a lot of laughs. I really missed the people when I went to work at Evans. That is probably my second most favorite place to work.
I have realized I like working with a large group of people rather than an office of just a hand full of people. At one time, we have about thirty people working in our clinic. There are 21 residents, 6 faculty doctors, 6 front office people and about 8 nurses. I love it there.
Probably the one thing that I do not like about my job is seeing the sad array of people that come into the clinic. We see some of the creepiest people who come seeking drugs. I could probably blog about that for hours, so I will be brief. It's very sad to see how they become so dependent that they will steal, lie and spend so much time going to various doctors and drug stores trying to get their pain meds. I hope I am never that dependent on something that I would go to those measures. I have seen child abuse and spousal abuse. I haven't seen elderly abuse, but I'm sure that will happen. I have heard stories about rapes that make me so angry, I could personally go out and find the rapist and do terrible things to him/her. I had no idea when I went into the medical field that I would see this kind of stuff. I just assumed that everyone would be a patient like me.
I love this time of year because it is cool in the evenings, and doesn't get too warm in the afternoons. The leaves are turning and the colors are gorgeous. This is the time of year when I met Robby and it always makes me a little nostalgic. We drove to Logan to see Rachelle's family yesterday and that is always fun.
I just adore D'Jayden and Zoe. I am excited that Rachelle is pregnant again and we can love another little grandchild. I love spoiling them, playing with them, chatting about things with them. I especially love chatting with D'Jayden. He is so funny. Yesterday we went and picked him up from school. He showed me his desk, where he sits at "circle time", where he hangs his coat, where he puts his papers, the name tag on his desk, and the papers in his desk and what he is currently working on. I miss that time with my kids. They were so precious at that age. D'Jayden told me about a black bear that was running through the school yard. They caught him in a cage and he came into the school. He went into D'Jayden's classroom, bounced a ball and then left. He told me that he had a picture of the bear. In my mind, I am picturing a wild, black bear running through the school yard, possibly during recess, and thinking it's a good thing they were able to put it in a cage. When he showed me the picture, I had to laugh because it was a picture of a mascot for some local team. It was a guy dressed up in a bear suit wearing a basketball outfit.
I have two cute programs on my iPad that I downloaded because I knew that Zoe would love them. One of them is the "Nighty Night" book that is absolutely adorable. The other is a picture book where you can dress up the Disney princesses. Of course, Zoe was all over the Disney princess book. We snuggled on the couch and played with my iPad for about an hour while Robby and Rachelle looked at my Scentsy catalog and smelled all the samples. They were so funny, speaking to each other in Dutch and sniffing each container very seriously and then comparing them. I just had to laugh. When we left, Zoe cried. She has never done that before. I was so flattered. I just adore those two little ones.
This time last year, I was so sad because I had no children with me. I think about that time and it was a very dark time for me. Probably the only thing that saved me was going back to school. I was distracted. I could pour my energies and thoughts into school work and I got all A's. I feel so fortunate to have Emeli and Brett with me. I love being a Mom and having their company. It was a very hard thing to have Emeli living so far away, knowing that she was unhappy and neglected. It tore me up inside and ate at me. I remember going to Dad's grave and just sobbing. I knew he understood and it felt good to know he was close to me, even though it was just his body. He always knew how I felt about being a mother. He knew they were everything to me. Robby was there for me, but he is the type who feels like you just put it behind you and move on. Not so easy for me. He has had a lot of practice doing that, but not me. I am just grateful that I have Emeli and Brett here right now. We have a lot of fun together. Brett makes dinner at night when I work late and it's really nice. Between him and Robby, there is always dinner on the table when I come home. Tonight, however, we are going to Wendy's.
Driving to Logan was so nice yesterday. It was just Robby and I. We held hands while he drove, we talked and had some alone time. We listened to my iPod and sang along to Johnny Cash. Robby has a deep bass voice and I love to hear him sing "I Walk the Line". I always laugh out loud and that eggs him on to sing even louder and more silly. I tell Robby that he is the only one I have ever been this close to in my life. He tells me I am the only one he has ever completely trusted.
I love Rachelle, too. She and I have a really good relationship. I do not try to take the place of her mom because she is very close to her mom. But I am a friend to her. She calls me when she needs to vent and knows I will always listen and take her side. She is a good girl and tries hard to do the right things. We laugh and joke a lot. I love being with her.
I am grateful for my life. Life is good and I have wonderful children and a wonderful husband. My job is satisfying and we live comfortably. I have everything I need. Yep, life is good.
